26/05/2026
I’ve been off social for about a week, Taking some time off with Vik & Raja in beautiful Cornwall. And without even planning it, I became so much more present. As a wife, as a dog mum, as a person. As myself.
The last couple of months have been heavy. A PhD funding proposal I’d been working on for two years. An Arts Council application for a project that has lived in me for ages. Both rejections in the same week, and I’m still processing what that means.
But I also know that the work I did in preparation for those things hasn’t gone to waste. If anything, it’s shown me how important this work is to me, how much I want to do it, and that I’m going to find another way.
Rejection has a way of landing in clusters. And taking time away after that has helped me come back to what matters, and to find something unexpectedly beautiful in having space to think about where my work is really going, where I want to take it, how to make it more aligned.
Coming back here, though? I can already feel the loop starting. The comparison, the noise, the questions about what I should be doing. When I’m away from all of that, I can get to the depth that I know matters. That depth is what lands with you too, I think. It’s the thing underneath everything I make.
And I’m making peace with something. I am not someone who can keep up with trends, or post in real time, or churn out new work quickly. That’s just not how I show up in the world, or in my practice. It probably shows in the gaps between posts. But behind those gaps is really deep, meaningful work, and real processing, and genuine reflection.
This is just an honest share. Something I haven’t done in a while. A note from where I’ve actually been.
Here’s a reminder to anyone and myself feeling the weight at the moment, to focus in on you, where you’re at in your own journey and path, coming back to what really matters 🧡
Sending love
Anisha 🌞