04/10/2026
My Daughter made a Declaration over me that made me Cry
She said to over facetime “Yay! Fun Linda is back!!!”
Since I caught Covid in 2021 I was deathly sick…. It messed up my Respiratory System and from then on my lungs haven’t been the same.
But Then I caught Covid again in 2023…. This triggered Significant Sleep Apnea…. Turns out I woke up 23 times an hour causing Extreme Sleep Deprivation and NO oxygen to my brain and lungs. Such Extreme levels can cause a Stroke. My Cortisol Level were very high as well since this last Covid bought triggered my Autoimmune System to activate bursitis and Arthritis in both knees…. I could barely walk and was in Complete Agony 24/7.
2025…. Literally tried to kill me. The first week in January I got RSV. At Church while holding a Baby their Grandparent said “They just tested Positive for RSV” within hours I had a 103 Fever… Sick as a Dog immediately put on Antibiotics and my first round of steroids.
Two weeks later…. At Church Feeling better but still Immune Compromised…. I received a Hug from a person who said “Poor Baby just tested Positive for The Flu” again within Hours I had a 103 fever and throwing up… Immediately put on another round of Antibiotics and More Steroids… 2 days I must have thrown up about 30 times and blood…. I was so Sick. And Helpless.
I went to Emergency. The ER Dr didn’t think I “look sick” and said to me “are you sure you don’t feel well” I advocated for myself. He begrudgingly gave me X-rays and took bloodwork….
I Tested Positive for RSV. The Flu. Bilateral Pneumonia (fluid in three lung pockets) They sent me home…. I barely had any Oxygen. I couldn’t Breathe. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears. I could barely move. I was in Complete Agony from the Inflammation Pneumonia triggered. It was Horrifically Terrible. My CT Scans showed Severe Scarring and Calcified Nodes throughout my lungs.
I know some are like “Whagggh Whagggh” get over your Pity Party 😵💫 and to you I say…. Go F**k Yourself
Yep. Go. F**k. Yourself. Just keeping it real. I’m so Freaking tired of the lack of Compassion and Sympathy in society. “Well did you get the poke” “well did you get the vaccine” “well this well that”….. Well….. Just shut up and be kind
The Level of Disappointment. Rejection. Condemnation. Shame. Guilt thrown at me was enough to….. put me in complete despair….. For 4 months our Little Shop was Closed…. Our Emergency bill for 2 hours was $18,000. Not only did I almost lose my life but again if it wasn’t for my Daughter and Husband I would been left financially destitute. Lost my Little Shop… My Dream
It was a Very, Very Lonely time. Left in Complete Solitude. True Story. Not One a person came to Visit. Not One. Four Months
How do you Perceive all that lack of concern….. As Rejection. As no one loved me. No one cared. Utterly left to my own devices…. I was Supremely Depressed like really really Depressed
The thoughts that crossed my mind were not good…. But God
For whatever reason The Father had me experience such loneliness and abandonment for a reason. I was utterly Helpless but He carried….. The Father held me in the Midnight Hours when the War was Raging in my mind and I could barely breath and the Sound of my Heartbeat was so loud and overwhelming.
I would plead God make it stop…. But He said to me “Allow the sound and the beat of your heart remind you are still alive. I’ve got you in the Palm of Hands”
So there I was laying in bed helpless for nearly 4 Months straight….. God was there and He wasn’t done with me yet. Because there was More to my story. Who am I to deny what The Lord can do. God is More than Able
So with a frail and compromised immune system….. I got sick a couple more times. Cancelled family vacations. Cancelled Van trips. Closed Shop. Holding on by a thread… Literally. God was my Strength. In my Cup of Suffering I still Praised Him and held onto hem of His coat. Like dear life. Literally. In the Valley my Cup runners over and He was All I Needed. His Goodness and His Mercy. Hallelujah
In August in Finally got to meet with my Pulmonary Specialist. We spoke about my CT scans. Unfortunately, he said it would be about 3 years before I could breathe normally. I started getting IV Treatments. Using Mary Ruth Vitamins. Medications. My inhaler. Spirometer. Prayer.
By November my Secondary CT scans my lungs had substantially cleared up. My hazy images were not as opaque. The scarring not as severe. Nodes almost vanished. It a Miracle. My pain. My inflammation has dramatically decreased. I still have trouble breathing but it’s much better.
Please do not minimize what I just went through… It was Horrifically Traumatic but Yes God is Healing me day by day!!
I’m so Grateful. I was in the Trenches of this Battle. But I held onto to the train of Jesus’s robe. That’s All I could give. And instead of Judging me in His Kindness He understood and Loved me even more.
Are you in a Trial? Hold on. Don’t give up. Even if it’s a little. Hold on. With bitter tears hold on.
God You are so good to me. I can’t believe how you love me. What a Friend You are to me. Thank You for Your Forgiveness. Thank You for Your Mercy and Grace.
Jesus Thank You for Loving Me. Thank You for Second Chances. Thank You for being my Friend. Thank You for Your Salvation
I’m Grateful ❤️
Mark 5:25-34
25 And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. 26 She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. 27 When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, 28 because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.” 29 Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering.
30 At once Jesus realized that power had gone out from him. He turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who touched my clothes?”
31 “You see the people crowding against you,” his disciples answered, “and yet you can ask, ‘Who touched me?’ ”
32 But Jesus kept looking around to see who had done it. 33 Then the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell at his feet and, trembling with fear, told him the whole truth. 34 He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”
